time management

Now that I am married I have become more aware of how I spend my time. During my first two years of teaching I was not so concerned with getting home right after school. Dont get me wrong, I loved coming home to Aaron. But there is something different about knowing I am going to home to my husband. Knowing that most of the time he is there waiting for me to come home.

The downside to all this is that I have become so involved at school that I do not get home until much later than I used to. I love what I do at school and do not want to give anything up, but everyday I have to keep in mind that I can not stay and socialize after cheer practice or games. I need to get home to my husband!

As humans we must treasure every moment we have with our loved ones. No one has discovered this infamous fountain of youth yet, so we do not have forever to spend with our family. Almost everyday I am reminded of this and I tell myself that I need to call my mom and talk to her, or that I need to send Aaron a quick email reminding him how much I love him. We may get in arguments with someone we love, and we may not always be happy with the way that person is acting; but we still have to treasure the amount of time we have to share our love.

is life really different?

Since the wedding day people ask me all the time what married life is like. I have to say that so far there are only a few things that are different from what they were before the wedding. There are a few obvious things like combined bank accounts, calling each other hubby and wifey, and we are a little more conscience of the decisions we make about everything.
Our conversations about having a family and where we should settle down to have a family have become more serious as well. I never understood until now how serious conversations like this really need to be and how much these decisions can change ones life. I said for a long time that I want kids and I want them now. And even now with one friend pregnant and another one is getting ready to start trying, I think to myself, "well how come I am not trying yet?"
I go through moments of being a tiny bit jealous and then moments of thinking "am I really ready to change my life so dramatically?" At this point I really dont know. I dont know if I am ready to interrupt our newlywed life. Is that ok to feel like that?
We have decided that a few things need to happen before kids come along, so it will be a while. We know that if God decides that we need a child sooner that He will provide us with one. But for now I will probably keep flip flopping with my feelings and I will provide as much love as I can for all my "kids" at school.

My Dads Song

Here are the lyrics to the song my dad had written for the father/daughter dance.

I cried the day that you were born, as I held you in my arms, for the first time.
I watched you grow through childhood woes, into this young mans, wife
(chorus)
I've seen you laugh, I've seen you cry, I've seen you fail, and I've seen you try.
I tried to keep you safe the best I could, But you're not my little girl, anymore

I gave you music, "Do you remember Kansas live?", I took you campin', and some fishin' we tried.
And we always had our favorite game, but"will you go play", just don't seem the same.
(chorus)

I held you back that year, you thought me a fool, be damn glad, you weren't home schooled.
I did my best to be your dad, I must be good, cause you didn't turn out half bad.

I've seen you laugh, and I've seen you cry.
To see you change, as the years go by.
One thing I know, I'll always be your dad, but you're not my little girl, anymore.
And this special note, for this young man, If you ever hurt his little girl, "On behalf of Steve's friends, I'm not afraid to go back to PRISON"

my favorite wedding memory

I have to admit that the one thing I was most nervous about when it came to the wedding reception was the father/daughter dance. My dad and I have never been the mushy feely type with each other. We get along and I know I can talk to him when I need to, but I am definitely closer to my mom.
Mom and dad would not tell me what song dad and I were going to dance to. I know dad wanted to be able to choose the song, so I allowed him that. We both knew that we did not want any of the traditional father daughter songs b/c those songs are just not us songs. So when it came time for the father daughter dance I braced myself for what ever song was going to come through those speakers.
Thats when dad said that he had a surprise for me. I saw one of our long time family friends getting his guitar out and going up on stage. I immediately started crying. Never in a million years did I expect dad to have some one perform for me! Then Dave started singing, not only was he performing for us, he was performing a song that he and my dad wrote just for me. How PERFECT! There were lyrics in that song that told stories from the day I was born up until now. I never felt closer to my dad than I did at that exact moment. I LOVE YOU DAD!!

ok, I am back!

once again, I have to admit that I have got to be the worst blogger ever!

The wedding has come and gone but not with out some incredible memories. My mom helped to make my wedding week one that will never be forgotten, starting with a bridal shower on Sunday.



The rest of the week was filled with getting more engagement photos, rehearsal dinner and casino night with the bridal party!




The day of our wedding I truly felt like a princess. My mom worked her but off to make it a memorable and precious day for us. I got to spend the day at the castle where everyone got their hair and makeup done while everyone else spent the day downstairs setting up. We dont have pictures from the wedding day yet, but they will be here soon!

I do not remember much after getting my bridal portraits done. Aaron says that we were at the reception for three hours, but I feel like it was only 30 minutes. I think everyone had a good time though, I know we did.

For our wedding night and the night after we stayed in a Camelot themed room, this room was amazing!





But, not as amazing as our room at Sandals Royal Caribbean in Jamaica! This is one trip that we are never going to forget, and we hope to go back some day. Here are a few pictures to enjoy:

Fireproof

A few weeks ago our Pastor suggested that we watch the movie "Fireproof" and observe the relationships in the movie. While this is a very cheesy movie and has some not so good acting we still enjoyed the message the movie was presenting.
In this movie a couple that has been married for 7 years is on the brink of divorce. The husbands christian father give him a book of written "tasks" that he must do for 40 days to try and save his marriage. These tasks are small things like doing something small and out of the ordinary (he decided to make her a cup of coffee which she happened to be in a hurry that morning and did not want it, so that made him mad!) A few days later his task was to create a romantic moment, so he went all out and created a very romantic dinner, and her response was telling him she did not love him.
Even though his wife kept rejecting him and everything he was doing for her, he still kept going. Every day he found something new to appreciate her for. He had his bad days and there were several days that he was ready to give up and just sign the divorce papers. But with the encouragement of his father he kept going.
One day his wife stayed home sick. The husband left to get her lunch to help make her feel better. She then revealed the book of tasks and asked him what day he was on. By that point he was on day 44, remember the book only has 40 days.
In the end the couple stayed together. They renewed their love for each other, worked on their communication and learned to appreciate each other more than they ever did before.
When you are with some one for a long time you become used to all their quirks and as time goes by your love for them should grow stronger. But if you start to feel something fall way, take a step back and take the time to remind yourself why you are with that person.
What made you fall in love with them? What about this person do you appreciate? What can you do for this person to show them you still love them? What in life have you sacrificed for them? What have they sacrificed for you!?
These are all questions that came to my mind while watching this movie. Every day I am reminded that even though I was picky and had high standards, I found the man of my dreams. I love him and appreciate him for everything he has provided for me. He has made me want to be a better person, and I am going to MARRY him!

mistakes

I have got to be one of the worst bloggers ever. I completely forgot that I even had this thing until I was looking at our wedding website last night!

A lot has happened in the past few weeks. This past week has probably been the most eventful. We had to get our invitations done and mailed out before the price of stamps went up. We had already bought our stamps a few weeks ago, but we were not very proactive about getting the invitation assembled. So, Sunday and Monday nights were very late nights for us. Finally around 11:30 Monday night we sealed the last invitation and Aaron packed them up to mailed out Tuesday morning.

I was very excited about our invitations until Aaron calls me yesterday and tells me that we spelled cocktail wrong. How in the world did I spell that wrong, and how did I miss it?!?! I was so mad, and I am still a little mad. We spent some much time and money to make these invitations perfect and there is a word spelled wrong. AAARRGGHHH! Mom said that if that is the worst thing that goes wrong we are doing well. But I am still not happy about the situation. uugghh...

On Saturday I went in for my first official dress fitting. The dress looked amazing...but not so much on me. I still have some work to do to make it look better on me. Everyone says it will look fine, but I disagree right now. I got a little upset with myself for not trying harder to make myself look better for the past year and a half. But...then I have to remind myself that Aaron loves me no matter what :)

The next few weeks are going to be crazy. As of today we are 65 days from our wedding day. I am so ready for it to be here!!